Feast of Live

I dont mind. Really. Even if Im the one who suffers. Even if I feel stupid. Or even if I hate myself for letting it get to me- But I dont mind.

A friend of mine told me, you could start by changing yourself or your image and Im actually speechless. Ive been waiting for someone to tell me straight to my face and Im glad it happened.

Its a headache if I keep not minding the things that happen to me especially social wise. But I really dont. I need to start minding though. But if I do, then what's left of me?

Ive always lived by protocols and not the intended desires, I wish I could. Yes, I actually can. Though, the question is, do I want to?

Maybe what Ive been doing is/has been destructive but I just want to have that believe that one day, Ill step into a greener place. Call me stupid, call me dumb, maybe I am, but patience is a virtue and I really dont mind waiting.